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monday 2 november 2009….   greenfield

A few posts behind this one I have one titled When Comes a New October, and just now I have finally finished it. October ended with a new life coming to me on the exact day that another very much loved life had gone. My therapist said to me Friday, “You love fiercely.” It’s only taken him a few months to figure that out, as compared to the fact that the Department of Mental Health never figured it out in a whole year.

The new life is a five-week-old guinea pig called Shiloh-Chailín, bought on Halloween. Chailin is pronounced Haleen, if anyone’s interested, and she is named for two of the nine cats who were stolen from me on 12 March 2008. This I’ve done in memory of you and for love of you, my two stolen girls.

So this small child begins with me living in one bedroom, and not knowing what will happen from day to day, as once again I am renting from a person of bizarre vicissitudes. I was told I could have an animal, but will that still be true tomorrow or the next day? I hope so, because I’m very grateful that the landlady came out with this all on her own: that I could have an animal. I never would have dared to ask for such a thing. But when a person does frequent and extreme changes of mood, I feel I’m always standing on shifting sand. I can’t count on anything.

Having an animal of my own again, after nearly 20 months since my family was stolen, is both wonderful and terrible. I suppose I’ll say more about that in the days to come. Here she be:

the princess at five weeks old


you can read more about her in the foreword to the book, All My Stars

read…    Stolen stars…   Mugsy’s book

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